I’m Not Sick of Myself

I’m not sick of myself, but I can’t help but think I have it a little better than I did a year ago.

I don’t think my life has been good enough, and I don´t think I’ve ever had any friends, either.

So maybe I’ve just been unlucky in the sense that I´ve not had the sort of people that would say, “Well, maybe you should be looking for a girlfriend, because I have no idea how to approach you and you’re not a normal person.”

The last thing I want is to be that kind of person.

And if I have a girlfriend then that means I’m pretty much going to be okay with that, but it means that my life will be different.

It means that I will have a relationship.

I will not have to worry about what other people think of me.

I am going to have to find my own place.

And that´s why I can still feel good.

I know that I can do this.

So why do I feel like I am stuck?

I feel that I don`t feel good, because my life is not good enough.

It feels like there is no one to turn to.

That, to me, is the hardest part of the job.

I think that it is not just the stress of the work, but the lack of connection with people.

I cannot trust anyone, I cannot even trust myself.

And so I am constantly looking for someone that I feel is going to change the way I see the world.

Maybe that person will be someone who will help me find a new perspective on things, or maybe I will become a better person because of that.

So I have to work hard, and that means working through the pain of this, but also the happiness of this.

If I had been a woman at the beginning of my career, I would have felt better.

I would be a happier person.

I feel better.

But I am not.

I still have to do my job.

And for some reason, I have never been able to work through the hard times I have had, the times when I have tried to do the things that are supposed to be easy, the things I want to do.

And I am so ashamed to admit that.

I have failed at them, and for the first time in my life I can say, I am proud of myself for that.

That is something that is hard to do, but that is a good thing.

And the reason that I am still not able to get through this is because I donít have the energy to deal with it.

It is very hard, because it has taken so much out of me that I really need.

I can´t sit around all day, or I am unable to go out with people, or we just don´T have time.

Sometimes we can be a little bit of a bummer.

We are not used to it.

We get into arguments with each other.

And it is so hard.

But it is worth it.

I want you to know that this has not been easy.

I just want to say, Thank you.

I appreciate it.

You really understand what it is like to be in this position.

It takes a lot of effort.

But, I can promise you that it will be worth it in the end.

I love you.